No matter how hard you try to cut the chains of your past, other will try harder to keep them linked
As I always do (and I keep trying to do it), for everything that happen to me that are both good and unpleasant, I believe that God want me to learn something instead of grumbling or passing it with nothing.
On previous Saturday, I went to Kwitang with 3 of my friends to look for a boarding house. We left from PLC at 11.30 am and started to walk around Kwitang at 2 pm under drizzle. We kept walking, in and out from one alley and boarding house to another, asking to inhabitant there about boarding house for woman.
Most of the places couldn’t satisfy us. There was a good and clean one but only has a free room, and we need about at least 4 rooms. We came to various type of house. One of them was a mystical house, with old women as the owner, that successful to make me feel like I was entering a different world, and I think if I stayed there every day would become “malam jum’at” day. She has many statuettes inside, old furniture, dark lighting, and I’d like to recommend that place to be a place to take a scene for Indonesian horror movie.
We also visited a mixed boarding house (aka kos campur cuy..), no women exist there but the house keeper, such entered a crocodile cage. Big NO NO for a place to live. I’d rather we walked to find another one and made my calf of leg bigger, than stayed there. So, we took a rest for a while and did our ashar prayer.
It was about 6 pm when we were tired and still hadn’t found a proper place yet, we were near with desperation and decided to go back to PLC because we had to arrive there before 8 pm. In the middle of our way to come back home, Linda, my inmate here, accidentally looked a board with “terima kos wanita” written on it. We knocked on the door, no one came. We tried again, and a house keeper came to us. Finally, we’ve found it, a nice boarding house with nice price and environment^^.
Sometimes it takes long time to meet what we want. But the only thing that we have to believe when we don’t find it, is God always gives what we need. Our life isn’t a fairytale, we won’t get what we want just by praying and soon after we open our eyes everything is served in front of us. Life won’t become interesting if every girl looks like snow white and every man turns as a prince with white horse.
Most of the time when people in trouble or in difficult situation (aka sedang di dalam cobaan), it will be easier for them to remember God than when God gives them tests with wealth and health.
Looking for a proper boarding house is like looking for a partner in life :lol:. Many people are available, but we don’t suddenly choose one just because others have found theirs. We keep waiting, praying, and trying, getting hurt, feeling up and down, until we get the right one which meets our compatibility version. But don’t worry, good things come to those who wait and try. So, while you’re waiting, make your waiting time worth ^^.
Don’t take this post too serious, will ya? 😉
Happiness is when you’re tired and doing something, you will forget about your tiredness.
Happiness is when you have little, you still share it with other.
Happiness is when you have problems, you can smile and thankful with things that has given to you from God.
Happiness is when you’re angry, and you still can control yourself wisely, talk patiently, and nothing make you regret later.
Happiness is when you fall and feel hurt, you still can smile widely and say “thanks God, You try to make me stronger”.
You will never be happier than you expect. To change your happiness, change your expectation. Bette Davis
Finding happiness is like finding yourself. You don’t find happiness, you make happiness. You choose happiness. Self-actualization is a process of discovering who you are, who you want to be and paving the way to happiness by doing what brings YOU the most meaning and contentment to your life over the long run. David Leonhardt
Happiness is when what you think, what you say, and what you do are in harmony. Mahatma Gandhi
Happiness comes only from appreciating what you have right now. You can even be happy by appreciating your troubles because they are helping to build your character. Harriet Meyerson
Happiness is living in a state of freely choosing to create and exchange one’s rational values with others. John Roberts
Happiness… is not a destination: it is a manner of traveling. Happiness is not an end in itself. It is a by-product of working, playing, loving and living. Haim Ginnot
Happiness for me is to know that my life has meaning and purpose, and that every day my life touches others in a positive way–whether to make them laugh or learn or both at once! Deanna Mascle
So, there’s no reason we can’t be happy ^^.
I totally forgot when the last time I talked about love :lol:. Yap, I keep thinking that my new environment really seizes my
body and my soul time. So, when will I find the guy who can make me speechless, feel loved, keep staring at his beautiful eyes when he talks, adore his kindness and his smart brain whole rest of my life, do silly and fun things together so we can laugh all the times? The only answer that I know is I think it’s getting closer ^^.
Without any reason, I wrote this post ^^. When I tried to find “roller coaster quote” on google, I found below quotes so I start thinking “how are you heart?” :lol:. I’m just trying to put rainbow on my sunday nite ^^.
“Life can be like a roller coaster…
And just when you think you’ve had enough,
and you ready to get off the ride and take the calm, easy merry-go round…
You change your mind, throw you hands in the air
and ride the roller coaster all over again.
That’s exhilaration…that’s living a bit on the edge…that’s being ALIVE.” -Stacey Charter-
“There comes a time when you have to stand up and shout:
This is me damn it! I look the way I look, think the way I think, feel the way I feel, love the way I love! I am a whole complex package. Take me… or leave me. Accept me – or walk away! Do not try to make me feel like less of a person, just because I don’t fit your idea of who I should be and don’t try to change me to fit your mold. If I need to change, I alone will make that decision.
When you are strong enough to love yourself 100%, good and bad – you will be amazed at the opportunities that life presents you.” -Stacey Charter-
“Don’t rely on someone else for your happiness and self worth. Only you can be responsible for that. If you can’t love and respect yourself – no one else will be able to make that happen. Accept who you are – completely; the good and the bad – and make changes as YOU see fit – not because you think someone else wants you to be different.”
“Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn’t it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses, you build up a whole suit of armor, so that nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life…You give them a piece of you. They didn’t ask for it. They did something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn’t your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so simple a phrase like ‘maybe we should be just friends’ turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It’s a soul-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. I hate love.” -Neil Gaiman-
“One day at a time–this is enough. Do not look back and grieve over the past for it is gone; and do not be troubled about the future, for it has not yet come. Live in the present, and make it so beautiful it will be worth remembering.”
“It hurts to love someone and not be loved in return, but what is the most painful is to love someone and never find the courage to let the person know how you feel.”
Okay, I think this is enough. Don’t be afraid to play roller coaster, because we can see beautiful scenery from the top ;).
I believe everybody has their own things that lead them to remember something from the past, and suddenly can turn their mood into blue or otherwise can brighten up their day. Things that can make them happen; remembering the past or something important or special occasions, could be in various forms.
Honestly, i don’t know why i write this. So, don’t get me wrong. Because lately i am feeling disturbed by many opinions that come to me, trying to judge what i feel inside. But, i can tell you, you guys were wrong with all of your statements that aimed to me. You know nothing about me.
So, what are the things that can make you recall the past? For me, these are the things.
- Songs. Ya, sometimes when i hear certain songs, they can drag me to the past when the moment happened. The songs from my current playlist that included in this “reminder” category are hmmm *let me check my playlist first*: Mad by Ne-Yo, James Morrison’s from Songs For You Truths For Me album, some soundtracks from Boys Before Flowers (if you don’t know, it’s a korean drama title), Happily Never After by Nicole, The Freshmen by Verve Pipe, and many others :D.
- Perfumes. Ya, when i smell certain perfumes or fragrances, i can feel the person again and the things that we did at the time. It’s difficult for me to explain it. But i am sure, you ever had the same experiences too ^^.
- Places. The places that we’ve ever visited also be an important thing for me when i am trying to recall the memory from the past.
- Rain. Yap, sometimes i hate rainy day. It will make me feel lonely (sometimes) and cheerless moreover if at the time i’ve missed someone. The feeling will become worst if i can’t tell the people what i feel inside ^^.
- Chat histories. If i am in a bad and very ugly mood, i’ll open my chat histories and read them again. Frankly, it works. Don’t take much time to draw a big smile on my face after i read them.
Humm maybe the things that i mentioned above are several things that most affect me, related with remembering the moments from the past. The rain outside has stopped, and my mood is turning yellow again ^^. So, smell ya later guys.
No matter how hard you try, you can’t lie to your heart! #ihatequotes
Setelah membaca postingan Mas Gusman, aku jadi teringat percakapan kami. Ya, tiap orang akan memiliki pandangan sendiri akan sesuatu dan hal ini juga dipengaruhi oleh pengalaman hidupnya. Bukan, bukan aku tidak ingin mempercayai orang lain. Tapi menurutku pada akhirnya segala sesuatunya akan kembali pada Tuhan dan diriku sendiri. Jadi, apa gunanya menyandarkan sesuatu pada orang lain? Sementara orang lainpun punya kepentingan sendiri.
Aku menikmatinya. Melakukan hal ini itu, untuk sekarang ataupun untuk kehidupanku selanjutnya, dengan mempercayakan segalanya pada Tuhan dan diriku. Aku belajar. Pernah aku percaya dan dikecewakan, dan aku tak ingin berekspektasi maupun berspekulasi pada manusia. Dan dari teman baikku aku juga belajar “gada yang lebih mengenal kita selain God dan kita sendiri, tidak juga orang tua kita”. (Lagi-lagi) Dia benar. Baca lebih lanjut