Resignation

I’m not talking about my job, I want to talk about my experience.

I thought back about my journey in the pass. I believe that everyone has their own tough time, the hard part to deal with. I’m a person who good in giving encouragement for myself, but I also had several hard times when I felt tired about something. When I did much to make things right but everything seemed wrong, when I walked so far and my skin burned by the sun but I felt further away from my direction and met a stalemate, they just led me to¬† emptiness, despair.

The best thing that I’ve ever done was surrender. God is the best place to ask, to go back, to rely on, everything.

Many times I asked to myself, since I’m not a devout and religious person, the one who cross line often, will God listen to my prayer? Will Him help me and give me way out?

And I realized, I did something wrong.

God is like what we think about Him..

So when I meet tough time, I’ll come to Him and make an honest confession,

God, I know I’m not a devout one. I’m not the one who always think about You. I’m the one who often broke Your rules. But I don’t have better place than You. Here I’m, asking for help, Your affection. I just want to say something, I’m surrendering. Please forgive me for every bad thing I’ve done. There’s nothing I can do here to make things better than surrender to You.

Soon after that I’ll feel better, my burden is reduced.

Sometimes confession about my limitations as a human being, when the reality does not go as planned even though I’ve tried so hard to keep it on the line, gives me the best solution: surrender, resignation.