Ways To Express Love

Suddenly I remembered my eldest sister. The last message I sent to her was a news related with my future plan. And she replied “it’s okay, so learn again”.

She has a tough personality, independent, a hard worker and she’s a kind of person who will stand on the front line to protect her family from bad things other people do. If I have to use one word to describe her, I’ll choose “fierce” :D. But behind her tough characteristic, she has a soft heart. Most of the times, she gives her best effort to people who ask for help.

On the previous New Year’s holiday, I spent my time there, at her home in Jogjakarta. We talked much at night, because she has to work until afternoon. As always, I am as person with expressive and stubborn characters, revealed some of my thought in front of her. And we took time until nearly down to find an agreement. I felt like long time didn’t talk to her in person. That was perfectly nice.

When the day came for me to go back to Jakarta, she accompanied me to airport. On the last time, I kissed her and she looked bit awkward 😀 and said “you’ll come again, right?”. I just smiled and pushed my trolley away from her because I had to check in.

Two days after I came back to Jakarta, she made a call. She said with half laughed and cried that she cries when open the door of the room that I used when I stayed at her home, because she thought that I was there ^^.

Nice thing also happened when she forgot my birthday. Soon after she realized that she made a biiiiiiig mistake *hyperbolic hihihi*, she talked to me and said “unyil, honey, my lovely youngest sister, please forgive me blahblah..” :D. She’s nice indeed.

We can’t ask people to express their feeling in the same way with ours. Some people will choose to hide their real feeling deep inside and show the opposite with many reasons; shy, not get used to it, awkward or just for keeping his/her pride high or something else. But on this case I walk on my theory, I’ll let the people that I love know what my real feeling is. Because I don’t want to take the risk to regret in the rest of my life when I have to lose my time to tell them what the truth is. No matter what. I’ll choose to feel ashamed than regret. And I realized that they’re not mind reader who can find things unspoken correctly.

So, which way will you choose? ^^

Huge hugs and lotta loves from here, sis..

Donor Darah

Ya, saya lagi malas untuk blogging in english. Daripada hiatus lama-lama dan blog jadi mati suri, mending postingan kali ini pake bahasa ibu saja ^^.

Hari ini adalah pengalaman pertamaku untuk donor darah. Padahal kemaren baru saja mengunjungi poliklinik di kantor untuk minta obat tambah darah, karna tensi rendah dan 2 minggu belakangan suka tiba-tiba pusing ga jelas.

Entah ke sambet apa, padahal kemaren bujuk rayu untuk donor datang bertubi-tubi *hiperbola dah*, tapi tak menggoyahkan imanku untuk TIDAK melakukan donor hehe. Walaupun kemaren ga donor, tapi tetep kebagian bubur kacang ijo. Enaaaak..padahal itu buatan kantin kantor :D.

Nah ini tadi tiba-tiba kepikiran ikutan donor. Mungkin setelah mengingat koleksi dosa yang banyak dan pengen tau rasanya donor, makanya mendapatkan hidayah dan memutuskan untuk berpartisipasi hehehe.

Keputusan ini pun tidak terjadi begitu saja, namun harus melewati peperangan batin *halaaah*, adu argumen dengan beberapa temen yang udah donor duluan, dan kebetulan aku juga belum sarapan (karna konon kabarnya yang belum sarapan ga boleh donorin darahnya).

Akhirnya ada satu hal yang semakin meneguhkan niatanku untuk mendonorkan darah. Kurang lebih seperti ini ilustrasinya:

Si pembujuk: Ayuk donor yuk, ga bikin gemuk kok ^^.

Aku si calon korban: Nggak ah, serem >.<

Si pembujuk: Ntar dapet bubur kacang hijau lagi loh..

Aku si calon korban: Ho yaa? *Wajah girang*. Boleh de 😀

Ternyata keteguhan hatiku kali ini hanya seharga dua mangkok bubur kacang hijau. Sungguh sulit dipercaya -_-;.

Aku ga takut si sama jarum suntik, tapi sebisa mungkin menghindar *ngeles*. Apalagi musti ada ngambil sample darah yang jarumnya dicucukin ke jari itu. Haduuuh malas sekali, karna aku dulu punya pengalaman tidak menyenangkan dalam hal ini pas masih muda belia.

Akhirnya sampai di TKP, dengan berat badan yang termasuk berlebih dan tidak mengidap AIDS atau penyakit menular lainnya, aku resmi diperbolehkan jadi pendonor. Yaaaay! ^^ Seneng, tapi serem. Seneng karna bisa sarapan bubur *sluurp* dan dapet pengalaman baru *yeah i am so excited on it*, serem karna kayaknya kok sakit ya dicucuk jarum -_-.

Setelah kelar sarapan, aku pasrah aja di kasurnya dan sibuk meyakinkan diri “sakitnya cuma sebentar koook *wink*”. Syukurlah mbak petugas PMI nya pinter, ga susah nyari titik untuk mancepin si jarum durjana itu.

Aneh aja rasanya ngeliat darah ngalir dengan derasnya keluar dari dalam tubuhmu dan tau-tau udah terkumpul sekantong. Semoga ga dipake buat shooting sinetron deh darahnya, bikin ga ikhlas >.<.

Ada yang bilang kalo habis donor bakal lemes dan pusing. Aku mulai khawatir, karna aku sebel banget kalo udah pusing gitu. Apalagi ntar malem brangkat ke Jogja, ga asik kalo pas di sana ntar tepar.

Ternyata tidak saudara-saudara! Aku hanya merasa ngantuk dan sedikit kehilangan selera makan :D. Sekarang ini kok udah ngrasa kenyang, padahal tadi cuma makan buburnya 2 mangkok kecil, lemper 1, makan siang nasinya 4 sendok, sari roti dikit, sama telur rebus. Eh ini uda kebanyakan ya seharusnya? :lol:.

Lain kali ikut lagi ah^^.

Hayo yang masih takut mau donor, ga sakit kook *crossing fingers* hehehehe. Darah kita berguna banget bagi orang lain, bisa menyelamatkan nyawa juga ^^. Ajaib! Hihihi..

Mr. Bean and His Plastic Surgeries

I just had terribly stomachache since before lunch time. After consumed a drug, i try to figure out something that can brighten up my day.

Voila, i found this. Can’t stop me from laughing :ROFL:.

Bean in Avatar

More?

Bean as pirate

Can’t get enough?

What if Mr. Bean becomes Harry Potter?

Mr Bean as HP

And… what happen if Edward falls in love with Mr. Bean?

Bean in Twilight

Ahahaha, thanks for making me laugh until shed tears ^______^.

To All Those Who Have Lost A Loved

Some people never realize that they’ve already made a gruesome mess, when they just so fu*king easily to enter and leave someone’s life. Do you know what happened to the his/her life? I am not sure if you care.

Ya, Raditya Dika wrote :

Falling in love is the most undemocratic feeling, because we can’t choose and refuse to care about someone.

moreover if unfortunately we fall for (errr..it’s easier if we call them) jerks. I don’t know what’s on earth when they do that thing, i mean it’s kind of the most unfair game if you’re playing with someone’s heart.

For an example, boy can say “ya, i love you, i care about you, please stay with me” or just simply “ya, i’ve crush on you” to a girl, and then another time he just abandons her feeling.

Okay, if he wants to blame her for doing the stupid thing; take too serious of what he said. She didn’t ask you to say it, right?

Maybe it will be easier if everything that he said just take place in her brain, not her heart. But most of the time, a simple and humdrum words could brighten up someone’s day and it could mean a lot.

What about if your sweet and poisonous words become her hope? Become her reason to stay alive? Or one of the source of her happiness?

Loving someone don’t like driving car on a road; if you take a wrong way, you can turn your car after you see the turning direction at the side of the road. I wish it could be that easy. God didn’t create backspace and delete buttons in our life for a reason.

So, please be wise while using your words. No need to spread your poisons all around. If you don’t have a plan to stay, be nice and don’t ruin someone’s life, stay away and shut your mouth. You can destroy her hope, and maybe it’s the last thing that she had. Even more if you don’t care and don’t want to take the responsibility of the scars that you’ve made.

There are only 2 things that can not be fixed by human: history and broken hearts. –#ihatequotes

P.S: This is for you hun. And hope it wont take long time to realize that i am the one who have the kicer disease :lol:.

Remembering The Past

I believe everybody has their own things that lead them to remember something from the past, and suddenly can turn their mood into blue or otherwise can brighten up their day. Things that can make them happen; remembering the past or something important or special occasions, could be in various forms.

Honestly, i don’t know why i write this. So, don’t get me wrong. Because lately i am feeling disturbed by many opinions that come to me, trying to  judge what i feel inside. But, i can tell you, you guys were wrong with all of your statements that aimed to me. You know nothing about me.

So, what are the things that can make you recall the past? For me, these are the things.

  1. Songs. Ya, sometimes when i hear certain songs, they can drag me to the past when the moment happened. The songs from my current playlist that included in this “reminder” category are hmmm *let me check my playlist first*: Mad by Ne-Yo, James Morrison’s from Songs For You Truths For Me album, some soundtracks  from Boys Before Flowers (if you don’t know, it’s a korean drama title), Happily Never After by Nicole, The Freshmen by Verve Pipe, and many others :D.
  2. Perfumes. Ya, when i smell certain perfumes or fragrances, i can feel the person again and the things that we did at the time. It’s difficult for me to explain it. But i am sure, you ever had the same experiences too ^^.
  3. Places.  The places that we’ve ever visited also be an important thing for me when i am trying to recall the memory from the past.
  4. Rain. Yap, sometimes i hate rainy day. It will make me feel lonely (sometimes) and cheerless moreover if at the time i’ve missed someone. The feeling will become worst if i can’t tell the people what i feel inside ^^.
  5. Chat histories. If i am in a bad and very ugly mood, i’ll open my chat histories and read them again. Frankly, it works. Don’t take much time to draw a big smile on my face after i read them.

Humm maybe the things that i mentioned above are several things that most affect me, related with remembering the moments from the past. The rain outside has stopped, and my mood is turning yellow again ^^. So, smell ya later guys.

No matter how hard you try, you can’t lie to your heart! #ihatequotes