Someone did something to me several days ago. It hurt me as hell, because it is hard to believe that he, person who I can said close to me, could said something bad and tortured me in front of our friends. This was happened because of miscommunication, and let say it was my fault.
Even though I am in a PMS period, I think I won’t do the same (and I hope so). I kept thinking about his words and how big the mistake that I’ve done. Maybe the only acceptable reason for me is everyone has different standard for the size of “small and big”. I could say the miscommunication shouldn’t bring such a disaster, but maybe other would say the opposite.
So, I accepted it and finally he asked for apologize. And I said the same even though my heart still hurt at that time. I felt worry when I want to meet him, because I think I’ll act awkward because for case like this I need recovery time to neutralize my feeling.
But something unpredictable happened, when he came I can be nicer than I thought I could be. I keep asking “hi girl, what happen? I think you will stay away from him to fulfil your recovery time. But you don’t.” And I realized the truth of theory from Ted Mosby that I wrote on my FB wall:
You may think your only choices are to swallow your anger or throw it in someone’s face, but there’s a third option: You can just let it go, and only when you do that it is really gone and you can move forward. -HIMYM-
Maybe one of the cure of hurt heart is let it go.